BeYOUtiful with AVON

I can't seem to stay caught up on my sleep! I'm so so tired and for no reason whatsoever. I'm glad to have slept in Brandon's arms lastnight. At the same time it was weird-maybe that's why I'm so tired. Not that it was weird because it didn't feel right, but because it was weird because I worried about him waking up, not realizing where he was or who was in the bed with him. I was slightly scared. But luckily things turned out fine-I just didn't sleep! He did though :) It's good to have him home!!

So as I thought, I couldn't sleep at all lastnight. Brandon called this morning and he will be in Louisville at 10:30ish!!!! I'm so excited! I get to be in his arms tonight!!! I'm so so ready!!

I know that tonight I won't sleep a single wink! I know that eventually I'll wake up to Brandon saying he made it to Atlanta and is leaving for Louisville. Then-he will call and say "Come pick me up!" Im thrilled! It's only been 102 days but it seems like forever! I'm so excited!

So...Brandon was told this morning that he'd be flying out tomorrow to come home! Later on in the day he was told that it had been pushed back. I hate that! He said with the USMC he comes to expect it! LOL...I'm getting to that point too. It stinks that it keeps changing but I know that once he's home, I'm gonna be so very excited!!! It's gonna stink when he flies out though...I won't be able to talk to him til he lands in the states. Maybe I'll get lucky and his flight will be mostly over while I"m sleeping...I dunno what I'll do not hearing from him!! Anyway...I'm gonna go email Brandon some more...he's on duty :)

Well the holiday season is in full swing and so is my stress. Brandon flies out from Iraq in 9 days and we have had a horrible past couple of weeks. I can see the "change" people talk about that soldiers go through. It's sad to me...I'm pushing through it and hoping that the environment doesn't consume the person I fell in love with. I'm hoping that his two weeks home will help revive our relationship. I'm tired of fighting and tired of being a human punching bag for all his emotions. I know he doesn't want me to feel that way, he just has no one else to vent to and I get to wear that hat...yay... He wants us to go through premarital counseling while he's home...mind you he just brought this up today! There's nothing available and there's nothing I can do about that. We had a big arguement today and I had a side of me come out that I never wanted him to see. But, at some point I have to put my foot down! I'm too good of a per...

This year my Christmas spirit is finally starting to come back. Last year was tough and this year was getting that way. I can't wait to have a place to call home and a place to make holiday memories in. I'm anxious for Brandon and I to make our own family traditions. I wish he was still coming home for Christmas. I miss him more than I can express with words! We have such an amazing connection with eachother...and it's a connection that we've created. We are pretty opposite but we share the same values and want the same things out of life. I love that he doesn't need a lot of "things" to make him happy. He just needs stability and love...I need that in my life. I need someone who wants me to love them and can return that love to me. I can't wait to have him home! I don't know where he will lead me but I know that it will be somewhere I'm suppose to be. I'm anxious to start our life together!

Brandon's leave dates have changed AGAIN!! He won't be home till the end of the year/Jan. 1...this sucks! He was suppose to be home Dec 21...when I'm off from work but now I'll be in school when he's home. He's happy about though cause he wants to come in and see my students. He said "This way I can come in and see our kids" He cracks me up! He's doing well over there and finally got to post some pics on myspace! I think I may share some of those on here cause they are VERY interesting to see LOL... This is a pic of Brandon's whole team RBT-South. They are at the border of Syria and Iraq right now and just finished a mision at the border of Jordan and Saudi Arabia. They are a great group of guys! This is Brandon on his flight to his new home! Isn't he cute!! This is such a cool pic! I had found a leaf that looked like a heart and spelled I Overall...Brandon is doing wonderful! He misses the states but he's pushing through one day ...

Well...I'm getting super duper excited for Brandon to be home!!! I can't believe there are onl 29 days left till I get to hug him!! We are going to NC for New Years and I am pumped about that! It will be nice to be away from KY for New Years and to just be able to focus on him! I get to talk to him less and less now but sometimes that's a choice made and not something that has to happen. He keeps saying that he knows I'll understand if he doesn't call and that he gets too tired and all that jazz...yeah I understand but I'm a girl-hearing from him is like giving me a shot of adrenaline! Myspace and iPhone are my lifelines to him...it sucks sometimes but I know in the end it will be worth it. My sister is 13 today and that is just crazy to me! It seems like she should still be 3...where did time go? (that makes me sound old LOL) She had a party here at my Nana's lastnight and now Nana is up cleaning after them...go figure! That's how it goes in th...

I'm doing laundry and the snow is falling...if only it would accumulate! I'm super excited about being able to talk to Brandon this morning...even if it was 3 a.m. He could call any time and I'd answer!! I love hearing him...it's sooo reassuring! He can't wait to be home and I can't wait to have him here. I got to surprise his mom today with the news that he's coming home earlier...she was thrilled! She said "well I know what you'll be doing for Christmas!" She's funny! I'll probably be living with them for those two weeks LOL!! It's gonna be awesome to see him at the airport and just run up and kiss him!! OMG!!! Ok...I'm gonna go now! -Barbara

For some reason I have always wanted to be the person that could help others. I try to do that but sometimes it goes unappreciated. So...I'm done!! I'm washing my hands clean of it all. If you make it,you make it. If you stay miserable,you stay miserable! I'm turning the other cheek and letting you deal with it! Enjoy!

So...I'm the most happy girl in the world!! Brandon was suppose to come home in February from Iraq but has changed his leave days. He wasn't going to tell me but he stinks at keeping things from me! He's coming home for Christmas and New Year's!!! OMG!!! I'm so very very very excited! I miss him more than can be imagined!

I can't believe it's October and I haven't written since August...OMG!!! So...let's recap, shall we? Hmm... August: *I had a fantastic trip flying to NC! It's always wonderful to see my love! *School started back and I'm teaching a 1/2 split class. I absolutely LOVE them!! *I turned 26! Brandon texted me at midnight the 24th to say that he hoped he was the first to tell me happy birthday :-) *Brandon came home August 28th for some leave time...this was his last at home visit before deployment :-( September: *Went to NC September 12th-17th to see Brandon off. The deployment was delayed another 24 hrs so his family and I had to leave without saying a final goodbye. I'll never forget that day...We texted eachother all day saying how much we were gonna miss eachother and how much we loved eachother :-) *Sept. 18th-Brandon leaves for Iraq. He called whe he got to Kuwait...I missed his first phone call and BAWLED!!! Lucky for me, he called back within ten m...

Hi there! I'm sitting here on the next to last day of work for me at the library...I'm quite bored! I get to fly to NC this weekend to see Brandon and the week just keeps CREEPING on! On the plus side, the extra money has made it possible for me to see him a lot! It sucks being in a relationship with someone who's 11 hours away! I can't wait till the deployment is over and he can be home with me...sigh... The school year is starting to be a little better. A lot of my behavior problems are starting to end and my class is really meshing with eachother. Now that I'm thinking that there's something I jus need to say...I'm beginning to be annoyed at people who don't respect me as a teacher. Each teacher is different and that doesn't make them bad! I had all the gossip and junk that gets spread around schools!!

Brandon returns to NC on August 13th...I get to fly down August 15th! YAY!!! The 16th will be our 4 month anniversary so that works out wonderfully! I can't wait to be in his arms again! I had my first day of school today and that was a lot of fun! I've found my nitch which is really cool-EBD kiddos! I love them! They are a handful but they are very very dear to my heart! This year I was blessed to have 5 students that I had last year! I have 23 students...15 boys and 8 girls...yeah I know, boys are trouble! ;-P They are fantastic! I have 5 EBD kids and 4 Special Ed. kids among the mix! I am so glad I decided to become a teacher! I plan on starting my masters degree this coming summer and getting my Special Education Endorsement in EBD. I'm anxious to learn more about it! Oh-on top of all that wonderfullness...Brandon comes home for 2 weeks August 28th-Sept 12th! We are having pictures made-he mentioned it!! I love him! The down side to that...he deploys Sep...

Hello again! As my summer is winding down, I realize I haven't posted for a while! Brandon is currently at Camp Pendleton, CA and he's doing a lot of cool stuff to get ready for Iraq. He's SO lonely!! Of course, so am I!! He's been filling my text inbox full of sweet and sappy texts...I love it! I'm so glad I've finally met someone that makes me happy and completes me on all levels! He is such an amazing person! To meet us, you'd think we were an odd couple cause we are complete opposites...but we mesh really well! We are planning to get married when he gets back from Iraq...probably 2010. I can't wait! There is this amazing church on 127 that we both love and hope to have the ceremony there...it has a pond on the property and a walkway leading to an island on the pond-it's PERFECT! We are both VERY excited. I've been spending a lot of time with his family...they are practically my own! LOL They are so sweet to me... I got to meet h...

Hi there! I'm typing this now as a new person...so to speak! My divorce became final and my new last name is Williams-Hale. That's gonna take some getting used to! I'm so excited though! It's weird to think that I don't have to use my married name anymore. It's very surreal to think that my marriage is really done and over...I'm not married, not single, but forever DIVORCED...ick! Anyways! I'm excited for this weekend to get started cause I'm hanging out at the pool all weekend! My family is away for ice skating competitions and I'm watching the animals! It's a tough job but someone has to do it!!

Today marks what would have been my 4th wedding anniversary. Since the day of separation, I had in my mind that today would be living hell for me. Surprisingly, it hasn't been at all! I've stayed really busy with work and then hanging out with Brandon's mom and brother at the fair. It's finally sinking in just where I am in my life. Also, I get to meet up with an old college roommate on Saturday! I'm super excited about that!! We haven't seen eachother in quite some time. She and I were VERY close. I'm anxious to see what she says about the me that I am now. This weekend: Softball game on Friday, moving crap from the attic on Saturday plus LOTS of swimming!! My parents are out of town so I am SUPER excited to just relax in the pool. Oh...on the 16th Brandon and I celebrated 2 months since getting back together lol... He's going through training now for Iraq and has been doing some freaky things. I guess there's a reason for it though... I...

It kinda just hit me tonight that Brandon will be leaving in September for Iraq... That is so wild to me! He's been in training classes for the last couple of weeks... The other night he sent me a text saying that if he didn't make it back he wanted me to promise that I'll move on and be happy. So, I'd have to be happy...alone and without him. That breaks my heart to even think about! I'll definitely be sending guardian angels his way come this fall. I can't lose him-not after everything we've been through. I just sit and think and cry and that kinda sucks... LOL! It blows my mind how in tune we've become with eachother. Even though I hated when we were apart...I think it's helped us both to realize what we mean to eachother. He's a pretty great guy, and I'm very lucky to have him in my life. So what if something really happens over there? What if he doesn't make it back? What do I do?? How do I start over again? How will I...

Today was first grade's award ceremony and it went wonderful! They all sang in sync with eachother and they all loved the awards they received. I loved looking at their faces as they came up to me to get their certificates. They are such precious little angels! I'm really excited to see what next year brings me and I'm bummed about the thought of getting my room ready for the summer. They are painting this summer which means I have to take EVERYTHING off the walls...not cool! I'm hoping to enlist the help of some friends wink, wink... I'm at home right now, just got out of the shower...I got pretty stinky doing Wii Fit-It rocks! I love seeing my BMI go down! Goal: to lose 10 more lbs. Then I'll be at the weight I would like to be. The way I see it, I've lost 30...what's another 10?? I'm really excited about that. I feel like a new person! My confidence level has shot way up and I'm feeling good about what I see in the mirror. Brand...

So today will mark a milestone for me and Brandon...I'm taking him to a cookout with my dad's family! Talk about baptism by fire LOL!! It's gonna be at my uncle Billy's so I know it will be a blast! I told him I hoped he liked frog legs!! As for me...I'm hoping they dont' scare him off!! ;-) The more time I spend with his family, the more I realize that we had the same upbringing...good ol' country living. It's very cool! I was at his house lastnight til about 1 this morning just hanging out and talking...his mom several times said "yeah, she's gonna fit right in with this family" I'm so happy! I have 4 days of school left and then it's summertime!! Of course, I'll be teaching classes at the library...but it's DEFINITELY worth it for the $$. I'm starting to get sick of living with my NANA but at the same time enjoy paying off my debt. I hope to be out of it soon... I'm also thankful that my ex-husband ha...

So...I only have 5 days of school left and then it's back to the summer job! I'm really excited though! The library has been good to me and has allowed me to do some awesome work with the kids in Frankfort. I'm gonna miss my kids though. It's so sad to think but I really love them like my own. They are so sweet and have helped me learn a lot about tolerance and life in general. They have my heart!

I am headed to North Carolina this weekend to see my baby!!! I'm so super excited! So...I've lost some patience with waiting til Friday...so I'm taking Thursday off too! LOL!! It will be so wonderful to be in Brandon's arms again. I can't explain how serene and perfect it feels. So now I have to come up with sub plans for Thurs. Fri. and Mon. The way I see it, I deserve a break!! Today at work Wiggles started laughing at me...I asked what was up and he just replied "I can't believe how sappy you guys are!" Yeah I guess we are a bit sappy but it works for us. It's really cool to be with someone that cares for you as deeply as you care for them. I don't have to settle anymore! In other news...Brandon's mom and I are talking more! That makes me so happy but a little scared at the same time. I don't want her to think I'm a weirdo...but I like getting to know her better. She called me lastnight to say thank you for the Mother...

It's funny how stuff just happens for you! You come home and realize your husband's girlfriend is at your house...you file for divorce (still waiting)...and then, amazingly...you find love!! I just wanted to make record of the wild and crazy, but satisfying ride my life has been on since August. August 2007 -He tells me he doesn't love me anymore, he's not attracted to me anymore, and he doesn't want to have kids (which we'd been trying to accomplish for the past 6 months) -We sleep in two separate bedrooms and talk only on random occasions...like roommates that hate eachother -I begin talking to my good friend's cousin who is in the USMC. He wants us to meet but like every other woman in the world, I'm holding out hope that my husband will get off his high horse and want to be with me... October 2007 -I permanantly move out...I stay with my friend Mer first and eventually end up living with my parents sharing a room with my 12 year old sister...now t...

So...what in the world is up with the weather today?? It's 9 in the morning and I've already seen rain, hail, and sunshine... I guess that's KY for you! It is getting to be that time of year when we get to take cover for random tornado warnings...great! To all you crazy mothers out there: Happy Mother's Day!!! You rock! For me...yet another year goes by without the joy of saying I, myself am a mother...but that will be changing soon!!! ;-)