BeYOUtiful with AVON

Today marks what would have been my 4th wedding anniversary. Since the day of separation, I had in my mind that today would be living hell for me. Surprisingly, it hasn't been at all! I've stayed really busy with work and then hanging out with Brandon's mom and brother at the fair. It's finally sinking in just where I am in my life. Also, I get to meet up with an old college roommate on Saturday! I'm super excited about that!! We haven't seen eachother in quite some time. She and I were VERY close. I'm anxious to see what she says about the me that I am now. This weekend: Softball game on Friday, moving crap from the attic on Saturday plus LOTS of swimming!! My parents are out of town so I am SUPER excited to just relax in the pool. Oh...on the 16th Brandon and I celebrated 2 months since getting back together lol... He's going through training now for Iraq and has been doing some freaky things. I guess there's a reason for it though... I...

It kinda just hit me tonight that Brandon will be leaving in September for Iraq... That is so wild to me! He's been in training classes for the last couple of weeks... The other night he sent me a text saying that if he didn't make it back he wanted me to promise that I'll move on and be happy. So, I'd have to be happy...alone and without him. That breaks my heart to even think about! I'll definitely be sending guardian angels his way come this fall. I can't lose him-not after everything we've been through. I just sit and think and cry and that kinda sucks... LOL! It blows my mind how in tune we've become with eachother. Even though I hated when we were apart...I think it's helped us both to realize what we mean to eachother. He's a pretty great guy, and I'm very lucky to have him in my life. So what if something really happens over there? What if he doesn't make it back? What do I do?? How do I start over again? How will I...