BeYOUtiful with AVON

I can't seem to stay caught up on my sleep! I'm so so tired and for no reason whatsoever. I'm glad to have slept in Brandon's arms lastnight. At the same time it was weird-maybe that's why I'm so tired. Not that it was weird because it didn't feel right, but because it was weird because I worried about him waking up, not realizing where he was or who was in the bed with him. I was slightly scared. But luckily things turned out fine-I just didn't sleep! He did though :) It's good to have him home!!

So as I thought, I couldn't sleep at all lastnight. Brandon called this morning and he will be in Louisville at 10:30ish!!!! I'm so excited! I get to be in his arms tonight!!! I'm so so ready!!

I know that tonight I won't sleep a single wink! I know that eventually I'll wake up to Brandon saying he made it to Atlanta and is leaving for Louisville. Then-he will call and say "Come pick me up!" Im thrilled! It's only been 102 days but it seems like forever! I'm so excited!

So...Brandon was told this morning that he'd be flying out tomorrow to come home! Later on in the day he was told that it had been pushed back. I hate that! He said with the USMC he comes to expect it! LOL...I'm getting to that point too. It stinks that it keeps changing but I know that once he's home, I'm gonna be so very excited!!! It's gonna stink when he flies out though...I won't be able to talk to him til he lands in the states. Maybe I'll get lucky and his flight will be mostly over while I"m sleeping...I dunno what I'll do not hearing from him!! Anyway...I'm gonna go email Brandon some more...he's on duty :)

Well the holiday season is in full swing and so is my stress. Brandon flies out from Iraq in 9 days and we have had a horrible past couple of weeks. I can see the "change" people talk about that soldiers go through. It's sad to me...I'm pushing through it and hoping that the environment doesn't consume the person I fell in love with. I'm hoping that his two weeks home will help revive our relationship. I'm tired of fighting and tired of being a human punching bag for all his emotions. I know he doesn't want me to feel that way, he just has no one else to vent to and I get to wear that hat...yay... He wants us to go through premarital counseling while he's home...mind you he just brought this up today! There's nothing available and there's nothing I can do about that. We had a big arguement today and I had a side of me come out that I never wanted him to see. But, at some point I have to put my foot down! I'm too good of a per...

This year my Christmas spirit is finally starting to come back. Last year was tough and this year was getting that way. I can't wait to have a place to call home and a place to make holiday memories in. I'm anxious for Brandon and I to make our own family traditions. I wish he was still coming home for Christmas. I miss him more than I can express with words! We have such an amazing connection with eachother...and it's a connection that we've created. We are pretty opposite but we share the same values and want the same things out of life. I love that he doesn't need a lot of "things" to make him happy. He just needs stability and love...I need that in my life. I need someone who wants me to love them and can return that love to me. I can't wait to have him home! I don't know where he will lead me but I know that it will be somewhere I'm suppose to be. I'm anxious to start our life together!